No Shelter

There is no safety for me in anyone's ego and there is no safety for you in mine.

If you ever thought you had safety in another's was an illusion.  Egos cannot truly share. Everyone in this world shares this disability at some "level," for if they didn't, they wouldn't be here.

Hubris or Humility?

Hubris or Humility?

Attack or Amore? 

Miracles or Murder? 


You must decide between God or the ego every moment. Notice your thoughts, therein lies the answer to your choice. 

If you choose the ego, God will wait until you choose again.



Are you familiar with the saying "Happiness is an inside job"?

This is not true. Happiness is an outside job, that is, searching outside yourself you can find happiness but inherent in the finding of happiness is the eventual unhappiness. It's inevitable when searching for fulfillment outside of you. 

Joy, however, is an inside job. Joy is not contingent on any person, circumstance, situation etc. Joy is. Seek for it inside, and you shall find.

Asking Questions

I just realized that all the questions that I've never asked is due to fearing the answer. You know the saying "Don't ask questions you don't want to know the answer to"...well, I just realized most of us don't ask certain questions because we really don't want to know the answers. We are scared of the truth.

In the relatively recent past, I wanted to ask a certain other a question that was heavy on my heart. I see now that part of the reason it took me three months to work up the courage to ask the person, point blank, was because I was afraid of the truth and what it might mean.

I am no longer afraid. I will no longer allow myself to be ruled by fear. 

My Current Thoughts About Matthew 5:3

Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. - Matthew 5:3

I never really understood this until earlier today. I had a revelation come to me about what it may mean... I think Jesus meant that people who have lost everything and have no one and nothing else to turn to, must turn to a Higher Power.

Therefore, those who feel like they have nowhere, no one, and nothing else to turn turn to, ultimately turn to a Higher Power - You know the saying: "There are no atheists in foxholes." Here's a thought that makes it vivid for me...I think about September 11, 2001, and the images of the people jumping to their deaths. I imagine that even an atheist in that position would jump with at least a tiny glimmer of the hope of a God or a some type of afterlife. 

Here is another translation of mine about Jesus' statement: "the lower and more beaten down by life you feel, the closer you are to turning yourself over to a Higher Power and remembering God, which is Love."


The crucifixion is the ultimate symbol of rejection. I am grateful for all the rejections I've experienced in my life. Rejection has helped me detach from my ego and my mind made self. Ultimately, rejection can and should lead to spiritual growth - that is the purpose of all pain and suffering - to expose the ego and the ego's attachments.

Age Regression

Traumatic age regression can be a result of not expressing feelings. This can create a delusional basis of reality where the foundation rests on emotional immaturity. This delusional basis manifests delusional relief before the next trauma cycle begins. Then repeat. 

Is this your life? Do you really think God wants this for you?