Grandiosity

"...Grandiosity is the flip side of debilitating shame."

- From "Shame and Guilt Masters of Disguise" by Jane Middelton-Moz

 

“Grandiosity is always a cover for despair.”

- A Course In Miracles, T-9.VII.49

 

How many times in my life have I been grandiose? Too many times to count. In what ways have I been grandiose? Judging others, giving unsolicited advice as if I know what's best, chasing after accomplishments in various spheres, one-upping others. These are just a few that come to mind but, there are countless other manifestations in my 38 years of living.

I want to leave my grandiosity behind, I no longer need it. It was an attempt at esteeming myself but it was done in a dysfunctional way. Grandiosity pushes real relationships away. I'm ready to love and be loved for just being.

When I am in the presence of someone who is grandiose, I will remember that under their grandiosity is a hurt child and instead of judging myself as better than, I will hold loving and healing thoughts towards that person.

Recent Books

A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles" - Marianne Williamson

I found this book to be a very well written and down to earth introduction to A Course In Miracles. Easy to read and easy to grasp the concepts. There's also a gentle warmth that comes through Marianne's words.

The Disappearance of the Universe: Straight Talk about Illusions, Past Lives, Religion, Sex, Politics, and the Miracles of Forgiveness - Gary Renard

This book took my understanding of A Course In Miracles to a whole new level. One concept from A Course In Miracles that Gary's book transformed for me is how us here in the realm of perception (duality) keep trying to bring truth to illusions instead of taking our illusions to truth.  

The Celestine Prophecy: An Adventure - James Redfield

This story has a nice message.  The idea of the "four dramas" was the most memorable thing I'll take away from this book.

Modern Man in Search of a Soul - Carl Jung

Jung was a man ahead of his time.  His insights brought to light what Freud wasn't spiritually evolved enough to delve into.

We cannot change anything unless we accept it.

"We cannot change anything unless we accept it. Condemnation does not liberate; it oppresses. I am the oppressor of the person I condemn, not his friend and fellow sufferer. I do not mean in the least to say that we must never pass judgment when we desire to help and improve. But if the doctor wishes to help a human being, he must be able to accept him as he is. And he can do this in reality only when he has already seen and accepted himself as he is."

- Carl Jung

Recent Books

Catching the Big Fish - David Lynch

A very interesting book. Mr. Lynch talks about how his discovery and use of transcendental meditation has helped him catch the big ideas for his films but has also transformed his life in countless positive ways.

Fight Club - Chuck Palahniuk

What can you say? A classic Chuck book.  Very entertaining. The dark sarcasm is just my style.

Recent Books

The New Codependency: Help and Guidance for Today's Generation  - Melody Beattie

The Gospel of Thomas - Elaine Pagels

Inferno: A Novel - Dan Brown

How to Raise Your Level of Consciousness - David R. Hawkins

Catch-22 - Joseph Heller

Recent Books

I've recently finished three books that have had a profound impact on me:

Power vs. Force - David Hawkins

The Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle

A Course In Miracles

Audiobooks

I discovered Audible just a few months ago. What took me so long? I love, love, love audiobooks.  I have devoured a lot of titles since I've gotten into audiobooks.  Here is a list of all the books I've "read" in the last few months:

  • A Course In Miracles (full text) - Dr. Helen Schucman (scribe)
  • I Can See Clearly Now - Dr. Wayne Dyer
  • Autobiography of a Yogi - Paramahansa Yogananda
  • Man's Search for Meaning - Viktor Frankl
  • Tao Te Ching - Lao Tsu
  • Wishes Fulfilled - Dr. Wayne Dyer
  • Choke - Chuck Palahniuk
  • Dying to Be Me - Anita Moorjani
  • A New Earth: Awakening to Your Life's Purpose - Eckhart Tolle
  • The Eckhart Tolle Audio Collection - Eckhart Tolle
  • The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire - Deepak Chopra
  • Spiritual Partnership: The Journey to Authentic Power - Gary Zukav
  • The Alchemist - Paulo Coelho

 

"Self" Esteem

“Self esteem” in ego terms means nothing more than that the ego has deluded itself into accepting its reality and is therefore temporarily less predatory. This “self esteem” is always vulnerable to stress, a term which actually refers to a condition in which the delusion of the ego’s reality is threatened. This produces either ego deflation or ego inflation, resulting in either withdrawal or attack.”

 - A Course In Miracles

#ACIM #unconditionallove #forgiveness #reallove #perfectlove

Saints

"God plants his saints sometimes in unexpected soil, lest we think we may reduce Him to a rule!"

Chapter 7: Autobiography of a Yogi - The Nazarene Way

The Ego's "Positive" Emotions

"Positive emotions generated by the ego already contain within themselves their opposite into which they can quickly turn. Here are some examples: What the ego calls love is possessiveness and addictive clinging that can turn into hate within a second. Anticipation about an upcoming event, which is the ego's overvaluation of future, easily turns into it's opposite - letdown or disappointment - when the event is over or doesn't fulfill the ego's expectations. Praise and recognition make you feel alive and happy one day; being criticized or ignored make you dejected and unhappy the next."

- A New Earth, Chapter 5, The Pain Body, Eckhart Tolle

This is parallel and identical to the the truth set forth in A Course In Miracles: "You can have pleasure, too, but ONLY at the cost of pain."  The cost of the ego's pleasure will always be pain. The cost of God's Pleasure doesn't exist. There is no price to pay for God's Love which extends all things to you and to everyone. To have all, give all to all.