Grandiosity

"...Grandiosity is the flip side of debilitating shame."

- From "Shame and Guilt Masters of Disguise" by Jane Middelton-Moz

 

“Grandiosity is always a cover for despair.”

- A Course In Miracles, T-9.VII.49

 

How many times in my life have I been grandiose? Too many times to count. In what ways have I been grandiose? Judging others, giving unsolicited advice as if I know what's best, chasing after accomplishments in various spheres, one-upping others. These are just a few that come to mind but, there are countless other manifestations in my 38 years of living.

I want to leave my grandiosity behind, I no longer need it. It was an attempt at esteeming myself but it was done in a dysfunctional way. Grandiosity pushes real relationships away. I'm ready to love and be loved for just being.

When I am in the presence of someone who is grandiose, I will remember that under their grandiosity is a hurt child and instead of judging myself as better than, I will hold loving and healing thoughts towards that person.