I grew up worshiping an idol. Impressing the idol was all I lived for. I carried this child way of being into my adulthood. I replaced my childhood idol with my "adult" idol.
For my entire life I've allowed idols to ascribe my value. The construction of my self was based upon being liked or disliked by my idols. My value hinged on my every decision. If my idols didn't like the way I looked or acted then I would change myself in the hopes of having their blessing bestowed on me. The lens I viewed life through was "will this please my idol or not?" If I thought my idol would be displeased, I wouldn't do it or even think it.
The fear of my idols casting me out of the Garden has been the driving force in my life. I will no longer live in this fear. I will no longer let the fear control my self and the creations that extend from my self. My true self.
Today I decide to own my power. My life. My choices. My power. My time.
Today I decide to walk away from the altars I have constructed for my false idols. Today I decide to return to the altar of God; the one God, my Father, who's remembrance causes idols to instantly crumble to dust.
"Seek not outside yourself. For it will fail, and you will weep each time an idol falls. Heaven cannot be found where it is not, and there can be no peace excepting there. Each idol that you worship when God calls will never answer in His place. There is no other answer you can substitute and find the happiness His answer brings." - A Course In Miracles